A Dear One

Today is my parents 30th wedding anniversary. That is incredible to me. I can’t imagine having been a part of something for 30 years. Maybe it’s because I can’t get beyond the fact that I’m only 23. The level of committment it takes to make a marriage last 30 years is beyond my scope of…

January 23, 2001
Ever find yourself quitely singing a song, even in your mind…and completely butchering the lyrics? And it’s not that you don’t know the words, you just have been singing similar sounding words unknowingly. Heh, makes for some pretty interesting tunes.

January 22, 2001
THERE WAS LIFE BEFORE THE COMPUTER An application was for employmentA program was a TV showA cursor used profanityA keyboard was a piano! Memory was something that you lost with ageA CD was a bank account!And if you had a broken disk,It would hurt when you found out! Compress was something you did to garbageNot…

January 22, 2001
*sigh* Another day of asking, “What do I want?” and “How do I get it?” The thing is when I stop asking, will it be a good thing or a bad thing?

January 20, 2001
Decisions, Decisions. So many to make right now, and I don’t even know where to begin. There are doors to open or close in every aspect of my life: school, work, personal, medical. I feel lost in a sea of indecision. How will I ever sort through all of this and find my life at…

January 18, 2001
“P” Day is Here! Today, January 17th, is “Promise Day”! Before you go scrambling to find a calendar, relax…I invented it. By now I’d say puffed up New Year’s resolutions have whithered back down into realities. Long term goals are still looming large. But here is a chance to committ to something and make it…

January 17, 2001
Here is me all day: *…(breathe)…(sigh)…(look at the clock)…(breathe)…* It’s a little something I like to call, “TECH SUPPORT SUCKS!!!” Seriously, this is day 2 in the battle against Pacific Bell dsl. In fact, I am holding “for the next available technician” even as I type. Before I go into this rant full force, let…

January 16, 2001
Okay, it hurts to blink. I have the world’s biggest headache today. Actually, I had it last night and it decided to stick around. So I’ve loaded up on advil and I am braving the day of work that awaits. However, if the day of work doesn’t happen to fill up the whole day and…

January 15, 2001
Feelings really get me sometimes. Ever feel something of a tangible intensity? It usually starts in the chest, and if you sit quietly and close your eyes for a moment you can feel it spread. A warmness fills your torso and moves through your arms and legs. It flows like a slow-moving trickle of liquid…

January 13, 2001
I am feeling much more alive today. I took a nice 2 hour nap, mmmmm sleep is sooo good. I need to eat something, my stomach grumbles are becoming audible and I haven’t eaten since breakfast. A word about interviews. I’ve had 2 this week that have been unlike any I’ve ever had before. One…

January 12, 2001